Day 5 of 30 Day Challenge.

Nick went out and caught bait fish at White Street Pier! He will use these to catch Snapper! We didn't get to go because we stayed home and napped after the boys had a big day at the Spring Fair with Nanny and Pepop. They had a blast. Lucas told me his favorite part was popcorn. William loved the Easter egg hunt. 🐣

I'm wearing the world's most comfortable sweater from Banana Republic. My shirt (super cute) has little gold, metallic hearts on it from the Gap. And my pants are comfy, cotton, loose fitting pants from Beth =)

Day 5

Day 4 of 30 Day Challenge.

So, I have noticed that one thing this blog is helping me with is to notice patterns in my life. However, everything is about to shift for the better! I will be home 5 days a week with the boys and just hoping for some good, quality time together. Here is me and Lucas tonight at Higgs Beach, one of our favorite spots to sit and watch the sunset, let Jax run around and look at the fishes! Tonight, we even popped over to the park for a quick ride on the swings. Great evening with my loves.

Teal tank top is from Walmart, shorts are gifted from my friend, Beth. They are some of my faves and so cute and comfy. She knows my taste! And, you can't quite see it, but I am wearing the new Made By Soto Forever bracelet! I don't have any charms yet, but I will. It's so lightweight and perfect.

Day 4

Day 3 of 30 Day Challenge.

Photo compliments of William =) haha. My shirt is Spiritual Gangster and shorts are gifted from mom, they are 100% cotton with a bow and 100% fabulous. You can't see them at all in this pic, but you will. A little tired today...  See ya tomorrow!

Day3.

Day 2 of 30 Day Challenge.

At home, hanging with the boys! The "coconut man" came and trimmed up the coconut tree, so I was a recipient of one of our very own, home grown coconuts. It was the best one I have ever had =) My shirt says "May the forest be with you." It was a gift from Mrs. Lynda, leggings are Lula Roe! My bag, pictured on the right, is Free People.

ps. aren't my tulips so pretty and just in time for Spring?

day 2

30 day challenge.

Trying something a little different on here... Today is the start of my 30 day blog challenge! It is to inspire creativity and gratitude =) So, I am posting one outfit a day for 30 days, using only 30 pieces of clothing. Sounds fun! I don't really blog much about fashion, but this just feels like some good ol' fashioned (no pun intended haha!) inspired action! woohoo! So, today's outfit: VS v neck top, lularoe leggings and my nike tennies, jewelry (not pictured, but will be) by Made by Soto.

Day 1

photo cred: my little William

Love & Marriage

I still remember the first time I fell in love. I was 15 years old. It was the first time that someones eyes and mouth became magnets for me. That was the beginning. What followed was all encompassing. This was before I had heard about self- love and my brain was not involved. It was purely a matter of the heart and when I couldn't be with him, I felt like I HAD TO BE. My entire life revolved around him. Talk about 0 to 60. 

Love at the age of 15 became love at the age of 17. My first boyfriend left and my second quickly followed. This relationship would see me through college (or lack thereof) and it was a rollercoaster. I am still recovering even though this person is no longer in my life. I believe he was the door waiting to be unlocked. He would show me to myself. Again, this love was all encompassing for me. It was summertime and moon shine. 

My third love is now. It is trying to right my wrongs. It is knowledge and practice and perseverance. It keeps me up at night. It is the birth of my two children. It is my strength and my weakness. 

I experienced true love once, in a matter of moments. It was gone just as quickly as it came, like a rocket ship to the moon. It was a melody. It still makes my heart swell. It is from this experience that love was built. 

I want to feel happy in love and joyful. I want to feel committed. I want to feel open and free. I want to feel warm socks on a Christmas morning and the sparks of a New Years kiss. In love, I want to feel like even when I am alone, my heart is not. I want to feel safe and adored. 

I feel this with my partner now. He is the first person where I felt loved. With Nick, I love his hands. I love his arms. I love his warmth and his eyes. I love his hugs. They feel good. My heart feels very loved and supported by him. With Nick, I want to feel strong. I want to feel connection and trust. I want to feel like we are evolving and evolving together. I know that we are, "Even when it didn't show."  

I want to feel a partnership. I want to exchange glances over our children's' heads. I want to know that we are doing this, and we are doing this together. And we are in this together. I want family. I want sunsets. I want the ocean breeze to warm our cheeks. I want it all. I want the good stuff. 

I want to marry this man because "I know no other way then this." ... "Where I does not exist. Nor you. So close that your hand on my chest is my hand. So close that your eyes close as I fall asleep." My soul has found it's counterpart. I can only pray that he wants the same. I can only pray that we will always be together. I can only pray for us to hug through all of life's trials and tribulations. To hold each other when we need to. To BE together. He is my beloved and I am his. 

Marriage is eternal. It is the promise that I will spend this life with him and the next. 

"If I cared to imagine a heaven, I would imagine a door opening and behind it, I would find him there." 

**quotes- Tristan Prettyman, Say Anything; Pablo Neruda (xvii) I do not love you.. and last quote is from Cloud Atlas 9, spoken by Somni - 451.


To Charlie, thank you for inspiring me. 

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