Day 23.

This photo reminds me of a ghost. It was taken last night at dinner, which was an interesting experience. I woke up today with bad anxiety. I am going to get my haircut today and go to the grocery store and start to implement meal planning in our lives. I just need some solitude, right now. I don't know what is going on with me, but I just feel like I am on unsteady ground. Much like this dock that I was standing on was wobbly and moving with the water. This is what my stomach feels like today! Bleh. But, it's another day with my loves and for that I am thankful. 

day 23

Day 22.

Marching to end gun violence. =( What a time to be getting ready to send babies out into the world. I am having a really hard time with this. I was thankful for the march because I felt like I wasn't so alone in all of this. There are good people out there that see things the way that I do. I guess the answer is to not be scared but to try to overcome that fear with courage. TOUGH STUFF when it comes to my little ones. I love them so much and just want them to have great, fulfilling lives and I know the next step in that journey is schooling and getting out into the world. Learning about cool stuff and also learning to respect and understand others. And who knows, maybe change the world. 

Imagine. Day 22. 

ps. on the other side of our poster was the female symbol and a peace dove. =)

Day 21 0f 30.

I will complete this challenge! It's hard to believe all of the things that have happened in 30 days. It started out with finding Amanda Frances, an appointment with Vicky Shaw, Nick's moped accident, and now... reaching the other side. It's almost Easter. I woke up in the middle of the night last night in sheer panic. I had so many racing thoughts... that I am failing as a mother, I am crazy for booking this online class, telling myself all the bad thoughts were true... and then I thought of this photo. I thought of William in the background and how content he looks. I cannot be failing at life if my little boy is happy. I thought of this challenge and the challenges during it, and I thought of the triumphs, as well. Making new friends, changing the way I am doing things, being a better listener and a better partner.

My work is of the highest good. I am well compensated for the work that I do. 

day 21

Day 20 of 30.

So, this 30 day blog challenge has definitely taken on a life of it's own. What started as 30 days of outfits, turned into 10 or so days of selfies, and definitely has not been at all about clothes. Well, not entirely. I failed to send myself the photo from the day, so I actually chose this one off of my computer. It is my favorite that I have taken of Nick's jewelry. I don't know, it reminds me of treasure. Of the Atocha. Of pirates. Of something old. Of something that I know. 

Day 20.

Day 19.

So, I took a break from social media over the weekend. I just felt like I needed to detox and absorb EVERYTHING. I am still in process. The shit that happened with Shaun, this MMM I am doing, the challenge, work, life, home, school, WOW. So, with the new moon, I took a breather. I think I am coming out on the other side of all this.

Happy First Day of Spring.

Day 19.

day 18

Day 18. Sigh. It was a great day. I had so much fun. I am trying to move past the shitty things that have happened. Like... Nick's moped accident. It sucks. I feel like I lost a friend. I am so confused about why this happened and how I feel like I cannot be friends with the person who caused it, anymore. And it is a lifelong friend. It super sucks. Worst of all... I feel like no one cares. I don't know. It feels like such a big deal to me. I know that the whole incident served a purpose. But WTF. Really?! Anyways, today was a great, super, fun day and for that I am thankful. ✌

day 18.

Day 17.

Well, today I ordered a new DSLR camera. I set the intention that it will bring amazing adventures into my life. Where will the camera go with us? Where will it take us? What will it see? Here is my Day 17 picture. Me and my boys. I am finding my faith in the universe again. Like, hey.. I remember you?! Only now, its a million times better because it is HEART CENTERED. Muah. Love to you all. 

Day 17