Countdown!

9 days and counting folks! I must be tired because I slept through the whole night and napped again for a few hours after swimming this morning. Other then that though, I feel great. I am spending my mornings in a sort of meditation mode where I swim at my parents house, doing stretches and just sort of thinking about William. Their house is very quiet and peaceful, sitting right on a canal and surrounded by beautiful flowers and trees. This space provides me with the perfect backdrop to prepare for my labor, both mentally and physically. I do the stretches that feel good to my body. I am very grateful to spend my mornings this way, allowing myself to feel my emotions and process them every day. This is truly helping me to achieve a very positive outlook, full of confidence in myself.

I am very ready to meet William! I feel that I have truly come to the end of my pregnancy and I can sense the anticipation from us all to meet each other. I was not sure how my emotions would be at this stage of the pregnancy. I did not know if I would start to feel sad that he was leaving my body or like I was not ready for this next chapter, but I totally am. It blows my mind the way that this whole process works and the power of the female instincts. This has given me a whole new outlook in what I am capable of as a woman and more then ever, I trust in forces unseen. 

With nine days left, the nursery is almost done. And hospital bags still need to be packed. But I know it will all get done. Most importantly, I just plan to rest and keep on loving these little kicks in my belly. Love to all.

These are a few of my favorite things!

1) 35 weeks belly 2) bougainvillea outside of my yoga studio 3) our new garden of potted plants (we have grapefruit mint, sweet basil and aloe vera) 4) my sweet lovies

Answer to the chaos.

This week has been a really hard week for me. I have been really exhausted, mind and body. My mind is in constant replay of what needs to be done before baby gets here and how unprepared I feel. I have been in my "nesting" phase, so the house cannot be clean enough. My to-do list seems to be ever growing and I feel the physical demands of this as well. I am at a time when I am not working, which is forcing me to have lots of time on my hands and time to think and only to sit still. While I know I am working through some things, part of me wants to run the other way. These feelings are what I entered the yoga studio with today and these feelings are what I left behind. Time and time again, I show up for myself here in this studio. A voice much stronger than that of worry and anxiety is kind and compassionate. The dark clouds soon pass and I can see the sunshine once again. I can't even begin to explain the love that I have for this practice or how it has gotten me through the rough patches of my life. Today was especially wonderful because I was able to reconnect with William and feel enormous amounts of love wash over me while breathing for the both of us. Through stretches and breathing, I was reminded of what I am doing and how it is so much bigger than anything else. I was reminded of how far I have come in eight months and I was able to appreciate the discomfort in my body as proof of the hard labor that I am accomplishing, day in and day out. I was able to slow down and just be with myself and my baby. All things that are much more important than clean laundry and an organized house.