From a special little boy =)

Lovely, cozy, little life.

Hello friends!

I have been thinking about my blog a lot lately. I have been putting off writing on here because honestly, these days, I just can't find the words to express how I am feeling. It is all SO beyond words. But, I really want to try because I know how much I enjoy looking at the posts I have done. I think it is a great way to document this whole experience. And I love to see the blog evolve with me! It is definitely a form of therapy for me. And I love to write and take photos, so it's a great place to combine those two joys!

Anyways, William Joseph (as I have taken to calling him lately, I know, I am REALLY bad with my full name thing.. I just LOVE his name) =) is doing just fine. He is getting so big and he loves to be held. So I am developing some serious back muscles these days. If he is up and awake, he wants to be walked around and shown things. Time doesn't really exist right now, but iced coffee does and thank god for that! I stay busy with William and making sure he is clean, fed, and happy. He is such a joy and his little smiles and bright eyes just warm my heart. I am constantly in awe of him. I will have moments where my breath will literally get caught in my chest when I look at him! Who knew something so small could have such a BIG impact.

Nick and I got to have a night out the other night. We went to Hot Tin Roof (one of the nicest restaurants in Key West!! Thank you Jess!). It was such a nice night with my love and so good to just sit together and talk. The view was absolutely amazing. It was a complete panoramic view of the water. We got to watch the sun set and then a lightning storm lit up the night sky. It was so cozy and sweet. I was wishing that we never had to leave that cozy, little restaurant.

Anyhoo, here are some pics of life lately...

passion flower vine

strawberry blooms

quilt time

Stop and smell the flowers.

I hope one thing that I can pass on to William is my love for the outdoors. There is something about being outside that helps me feel satisfied. There are always different things to observe and wonder about. Today, I was loving the bright blue of the water and the pops of color that these flowers gave off. I am always thinking of William and what he must be seeing when we see these beautiful colors that are just giving off spectacular shades of light! It must all look like a Van Gogh painting, bright colors and shapes that all seem to dance around.

Rainy Day Love.

Here are some pictures from last week when we were stuck inside for days because a semi-tropical storm and tons of rain! We ended up having lots of snuggle time and just being together, so you know I didn't mind one bit that our street started to overflow like a river. =)

Here he is! My little William Joseph. Today is our first full day without Nick and we are doing pretty well. It is definitely going to be an adjustment for the both of us, but I think we will manage just fine once we get there! I can tell that William misses his daddy and his big old, wet kisses all over his cheeks. William and I are finding some things that we like to do together.. so far, we like to do stretches on the yoga mat (when Jax isn't using it as his bed!) and we like to go sit outside and soak up the sun for a few minutes. Today, we went in the afternoon and it got hot pretty quickly, so it would be nice to try and make this more of a morning/evening thing when we can stay outside for longer!

Tomorrow is my six week postpartum appt., which means if all is well, I can start easing into some exercise. One thing at a time though!

mariposa

William

Today is the first day that I am back here since my pregnancy. William is five weeks old and a thriving little boy. He is very strong and loves to hold his head up all by himself! He loves to look around at new things and enjoys the warmth of the sun. He is so sweet and I love every moment that I get to spend with him. The feeling when he is curled up on my chest is one of pure bliss. It is just warmth and sweetness and completeness. He does so many things that make me laugh.. his little sneezes and the face he makes afterward, the way he shoots his arms up when you put him on his changing table, and his really wonderful, toothless smile. He is a constant source of new wonders.

As for me, I am doing well. This Monday will be six weeks since he was born. I have said it before, this whole process is pretty CRAZY! It seems like you go from being one person to someone else and I am not quite sure who that person is yet. I know that I want to be the best for my son. I want to make a comfy little bed in the present moment and stay there forever. So I don't ever have to miss one beautiful moment with him. I don't ever want to take any of it for granted because it is all once in a lifetime and the moments fly by with him and he is born one day and five weeks old the next.

Life is different now. My life revolves around my son and being with him is the only thing that matters. Nick and I feel different now. It is almost as if we are one being, the three of us. Life feels heavier, but heavier in a juicy, delicious kind of way. Like the best mango on the tree. =)

Now we're standing on the edge.

making pesto

veggie & black bean wraps- nutritious & delicious

lillies

looks like we are swimming around in a precious gemstone

captain jax

tiny piece of heaven

nick's owl voice "I am mr. owl. Whooooo are youuuuu?" =)

bruschetta 

oh well hello 

mary mary 

passion flower

belly kisses 

Hello friends & family & other wonderful people who check out this little blog of mine (thank you by the way!). Here are some photos of our little life lately. As you can see, full of love, good food and sunshine. Just the way I like it. Today is April 25th and officially due date. I can't believe it has been nine months! Now, it's up to William when he wants to come (but I am sure going to do everything I can to get him motivated!!) As with every milestone, I feel lots of gratitude to all the people who have helped get us here, keep us positive and make our lives that much more beautiful.  We are surrounded by really lovely people and I cannot wait for them to continue this journey with us and William!

At 40 weeks, I feel great. I still have lots of energy and am trying to get in some sort of exercise every day. I hope that this makes my labor a little smoother. I am talking to William and telling him my wishes of having a smooth, stress free labor for the both of us. He says he wants the same. =) So I'm glad we are on the same page. It is such a crazy feeling not knowing what my life is going to be like tomorrow or even by the end of the day. Just going with the flow and trusting in the process! Love to you all.

PS- hospital bag is packed and waiting at the door! Snaps.