being a mom (feelings of a 3 month mom)

what is it about being a mom that just seems to satisfy my innermost being? Is it the organization? The satisfaction of completing daily tasks? Is it a hand written grocery list or a well equipped beach bag? Is it holding something in my arms? Is it the end of another day, knowing I am loved? I don't know, but there is something about being able to stare into the eyes of another and see yourself and liking what you see. There is something about a huge smile, just for you. Or a warm head on your heart. It is words and thoughts and feelings and so much more. It is the feeling of a piece of me being outside of my body where I can touch it and see it and feel it. It is the end of a long day. The whimpers during sleep. The immediate, innate reaction to his every need. The feeling of giving with no expectation. Perhaps it is without a doubt what women were equipped to do, so all that love that is so much a part of us has somewhere to go. All I know is that William Joseph is a part of me. A part that I can't exactly explain or even understand, but am so happy to have. When he looks at me, I sware he is seeing so much more than what meets the eye, so much more than what anyone else can see. There is no judgement, there need be no conversation. I am so blessed to have received him. He is so wonderful and perfect. I just can't get enough. He is so much happiness. Pure and true. His little warm body and soft, white skin, in my arms... It is like laying on a cloud. It is pure heaven. I can't even explain it. I just know that I have to try. I have to try to express and put together what I feel, because that makes it all real. That means it really happened. It's not just this beautiful dream that happened to me one night. It was as real as you and me. I thought I had known happiness before William was born. I know what it is like to love and adore things. I love flowers, I admire them every chance I get. I love to smell them and observe them in their bursts of color. I thought I had never seen something as beautiful as a flower. And then came my William. The prettiest flower of all. He is like a bud emerging every day. The feelings that I have to protect him and just hold in my arms forever... they are something serious. It can be a bit overwhelming at times, but it is a part of me just like he is. I love him and he will forever be my tu me manques.

3 month William

I have been so excited to talk to you guys all day! Today is William's 3 month birthday. I feel mostly excitement today. Excitement for what is and how FAR we have come in the past 3 months, and excitement for the future, and how far we will go. We have really grown so much in the past three months. We are really starting to function as a solid unit these days. From only having ourselves to take care of, to now having four living beings to care for, we are doing quite well. William is everything we could ever ask for and more, like the 4th member of the wolf pack. He comes with a little extra luggage, but hey, I get that. Here he is up here with his new buddy, Shea Shea the sheep. I have a feeling Shea Shea is going to be around for a while. I think he is going to be THAT toy (the one that sticks around until you are about 12...Don't worry William, momma won't tell.)   =)

He is just my heart and soul and I love him more with each passing day. I also love that he is getting older and able to do more stuff! I feel like now I can take him to the grocery store and stuff (even though I probably won't). But anyways, I just love this picture of him. He cracked a little smile for his daddy and I for this 3 month photo shoot, while we stand there in front of him, pulling out all the stops to get him to smile. And we got it. The three month William photo, even more perfect then he was a month ago.

Enjoy guys. And as always, thank you.

Nick and Feryn's Busy Year

Thank you miss Mary Prada for this BEAUTIFUL slideshow. It is such a great recap of the year and everything we have accomplished together. I can't believe it's been a year! I know people say it all the time, but time sure does fly. This really gave me an appreciation for the journey that we have been on. I am so lucky to be surrounded by beautiful friends and family. Now, I am looking forward to my best friend having her baby, due in October. Cannot wait to meet that little guy, and most of all, can't wait for my best friend to be a mom because I know she is going to be a great mom. I can't wait to walk into the room and see her holding her baby. It just fills my heart with love. =)))

In other best friend news, Nick and I got to have a night out this week! We were gone for a whole three hours and got to go run around Mallory Square for a bit and meet all of his friends down there. It was definitely a fun night but I loved coming home to my William. =)

Enjoy the show =)

(ps can i just mention that i LOVE banpankw?)

Colorful

It's been a good week, getting out a little bit more for walks and swims, which is nice! Weather has been pretty nice actually and not too terribly hot, thanks to a nice breeze we have had blowing in. Got to see the sunset this week at White Street Pier for William's first White Street walk and sunset. It was a gorgeous sunset and of course, people were more interested in William then the sunset =) He sure is getting big, I had someone ask me if he was 7 months old today! No, only 2 (almost 3 in about a week!!). From his 7 lbs at birth, he is now 13 and has grown 7 inches!

Hope all is well and everyone is enjoying the weekend =)

hi jassy

we come in peace =)

not so happy, but still so handsome

speaking of handsome...

Peace out ya'll!

Rainy Daze

Hello from rainy Key West. It's a mellow kind of day here, which I never mind. I can't believe it's already 2:00! I just wanted to share some of my inspiration with you guys. It's been a reflective time for me this week, thinking lots about the world and the reason such crazy things happen. All I want is to think with an open mind and love with an open heart. And I want the same for William. So, I hope everyone is doing well. We are looking forward to the coming months and visits with family. I try to share all of the wonderfulness of William  but it's so much better when you get to experience him for yourself. He is pure joy and love. Sending love to all!

hey guys. not my pic. I have had a lot of people ask! =)

WJ Soto

Hi guys.

How is everyone doing? I hope well! Summer is going well for us down here! It's been a rather trying week for me this week, but staying positive and will keep pushing forward! You guys give me great inspiration just by reading my blog, hearing my words, and showing lots of love and support. This means so much to me. And thank you for loving William so much. He really is a special little boy! We really appreciate all of the love ad support that we receive. Love love love you all. 

Anyways, william is just more wonderful then ever! He does so many funny things, I could just watch him forever. He has now discovered his hands and is putting them in his mouth! =) he is taking "big boy" baths, where I fill up the tub with bubbles and hop in there with him. He loves to float and be in the water. He is really learning to kick those little legs! I have been talking to him more and more and we really have the best conversations! We listen to music and he loves his lullabies. They are so relaxing for us both and a great way to wind down (I am hoping this sticks!). He is getting big, 12 lbs big! His lashes are getting long and hair is starting to curl. He has the biggest smile and loves to show it off. He is such a happy little baby and I love him so! Here are some pics for you all. I am having fun learning to edit my pics, so I hope you all enjoy! Love to all and thanks again. Xo

what keeps mommy going =)

look at those lashes!

william's sweet room

bathtime william

overalls boy

randoms

Things I am loving right now:

walks
nature
music
movies
pictures
color
fashion
love
william
pregnant friends
baths
pools
sunshine
mom
mary
totes
jax
fireworks
summer
nostalgia
vintage
berr
lavendar
home
garden
emm & hay
playtime
stretching
yoga
dreams
quiet
did i mention william?
birds
butterflies (this is always)
ps we had a caterpillar eat our green pepper right off the plant!
nick
ban pan
pixelmator
aden & anais
boppy (i dont use this nearly enough but i love it for william to fall alseep on. its so so soft and holds him right against my chest)
barefeet
cool grass
the hose =)
easton (my best friend in the whole world is naming her boy easton)
thunderstorms
sleep
iTunes
spotify
tv (i miss cable!)
babe
glider cloud
everything william
4th of july (i love the 4th of july)
peace
roses